A cup of the little voice inside me

I don't really understand the saying "wearing your heart on your sleeve"

Maybe it's because I've never did wear it on my sleeve...

I'm quite scared to do so.

It's a bad bad world out there. I have troubles even trying to trust people on a daily basis.

You're asking me to show my weak side. No one sees that except a few.

Even then, I try to hide my hurts. At this point no one or nothing can try to see my heart.

It's not there. seriously. the other day I tried to feel something yet nothing. I tried to smile yet I just cried.

I want to do so to meet my special other but I think i'm at a point where I'm not fixable.

Yet there's that little voice inside me that keeps telling me I can...

A Cup of Broken Things.

There are broken things where her heart should be.
A side to her no one else can see.

Sometimes the girl who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely.
she tries to find her one and only
but yet she holds back and keeps her heart closely
trying to move on fearlessly
but loosely, non comprehensively, and submissively.. she fails.

Her plans of moving on derails
her thoughts go back to the details
and she can't seem to control her sails.

shes scared and unprepared.
Yet she's in deep desperation of repair.


The fear in showing her broken pieces
the size of her baggage increases.
As she tries to organize to restart
she tries to show her weak part.. I mean the heart is the most complex body part.
But she realizes it's time to be smart an start.
To leave behind the past and refine the bleeding heart.



hope you enjoyed my poem! lemme know what you thought about it <3

A cup of perspective of multiplication

Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply.

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. 

If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.

If you give her groceries, she'll make a marvelous meal.

If you give her a smile, She'll give you her heart. 

She multiples and enlarges what is given to her.



So....
If you give her any crap, you'll receive a ton of SHIT.

A cup of I miss you, I miss us

I was a hopeless romantic, you were a swine.

I'm Losing Myself by Robin Pecknold

Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw

Bay of Pigs by Destroyer

Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield

Enchanting Ghost by Sufjan Stevens

Make you feel my love by Adele

In Your Own Way by I Come To Shanghai

enjoy <3

A Bucket Full of Lists and Ideas For a Date

So I was thinking of making a bucket list since New Year resolutions never work but I ended up coming up with a "bucket list for dating"! Things and activities I would like to do when I do find my significant other! 

1. Wash our cars together.
2. Have a legit picnic.
3. Jam out! Write a song together! 
4. Cook or bake something we've never had before.
5. Explore our wonderful city of lights and act like tourists.
6. Go to a comedy or poetry club and participate.
7. Make banana pancakes on a rainy day and stay in bed watching black and white movies.
8. Dance in the rain.
9. Go camping and roast marshmallows and eat PB&J Sandies.
10. Feed the duckies and go on swings.
11. Go fruit picking.
12. Take a road trip for a day and see the sunrise and sunset.
13. Go to an amusement park and attempt at a kiss photo while riding the scariest ride.
14. Go to a thrift store and pick each other outfits and go on a photo shoot.
15. Buy sketch books and pencils and be create and explore.
16. Skinny Dip!
17. Go watch air planes take off and land.
18. Go to a drive in movie.
19. Water fight! Build a woman/man-made slip and slide!
20. Volunteer together.
    
    Enjoy <3

A Cup of All Pain is Temporary

Listen to me… 

Pain is temporary. It may last for a minuite or an hour or a day or even a year, but eventually it will subside. And something else will take its place. If i quit however it will last forever. Ya’ll spoiled some of ya’ll spoiled just bottom line. Your parents have done everything for you, you never had to do nothing for yourself your spoiled we gon’ keep it real tonight some of you are spoiled brats! Everytime you ever got in trouble somebody in your house got you out of it! Every time you done something your not supposed to you they say here your mothers a tyrant, you're right.

 She kicked me out. Your right, shes mean, but she developed a man. Because she put me out there and said your gon’ have to grow up and some of you never learned to grow up. So every time something get hard you quit, you call momma. I dare you to take a lil pain. I dare you… I dare you not to go home, somebody said if i don't go home i feel bad, go throw it!! You ain't gon’ die! At the end of pain is success! You not gonna die because you felt a lil pain! Oh I'm not eating like i eat at home.. that's why you about to go to the next level cause if you keep eating like you ate at home you gon’ keep being a boy or girl.. its time to become MAN/WOMAN. But I'm exactly where i wanted to be because i realise, i gotta commit my very being to this thing… i gotta breathe it i gotta eat it i gotta sleep it and until you get there, you will never be a successful in life. But once you get there i guarantee you.. the world is yours. So work hard and you can have whatever it is you wanted.

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A Cup of a Confuzzled Infused Single Tea

Why is it that life hits you with the most unexciting things when you want exciting things to happen and vise-versa?

What I want to establish right now is, why the hell am I single for this long? 

Its been about 4 years since I've actually had an actual boyfriend and, I'm ready! Seriously. No backing out. Do i sound crazy? don't get me wrong, I'm not love crazy... Hopefully. I miss falling in love. Being in that stage where you get butterflies in your stomach even when you hear the other's name. Having insomnia for the right reasons due to the excitement in love, not insomnia of wondering what the hell is wrong with me. Am i ugly? Am I too straight up? Is it because I sometimes have strong opinions about certain things?Am I always gonna be one of the dudes that will be never be considered a "lady"? I don't know. I'm just tired of being single now. I want to move on. I tell my guy friends to just move on as an advice, but i don't take it myself. I feel like a hypocrite but life isn't really giving me an opportunity. Or am I avoiding the opportunity? I think I would've noticed over the 4 years of being single. The more I think about why I'm single the more I start jumping to conclusion and start beating myself mentally by lowering my self esteem and that's the stupidest thing, to lower myself, but it's true... What am I doing wrong? What do the other girls have that I don't have? Are my standards too high? At this very moment I don't even think i have standards..No, I'm lying, but all I ask for in a guy is for him to spoil me with his love. That's all. is that too high of a standard?What am i doing wrong Internet? What am i doing wrong?

Maybe it's just the insomnia talking.