If i told you that i was speechless, i would be lying.
Although i do admit, i feel like i got stabbed not only in the back but places i didn't even know even existed. I'm surprised I'm not on the floor rolling from this pain, but rather i feel like I'm on a "candid camera" show or it's some type of sick joke.
See, because I'm not only hurt by the fact that you erased me but the fact that I've been on your side from the very beginning whether you were right or wrong I never ever looked another way. When I trust someone like I did with you, it makes me want to just give up on life as a whole.
Ever since i was little, it was engraved into both my head and heart that I will never, especially in this life time, be able to have a person I considered as my little sister. Moments and memories fill up my mind as I'm writing this and it makes it excruciatingly hard for me to even know where to start. It's really hard to see anything bad about a person a little sister who I've valued half your lifetime.
Each time someone thought or said I was someone stupid or just didn't know how to use my brain you out of all people gave me hope that i wasn't and that i will never be. Just thinking about this now makes me nauseous and numb to the point where i feel paralysed.
You're not the only one to blame it's my mistake, i should've been wiser by now right? To not trust anyone.
Maybe I'm asking too much from you.
Maybe I'm over reacting.
I don't know how to take this in or how to react. On that note, I am speechless.
