A cup of "closed heart"

Hearts just paralyzed as we kissed eyes.
Slap! You were like an inevitable booby trap.
Back to reality and gravity hits like a ton of bricks.
Trying to quick fix and feelings are mixed.
As the butterflies takes you back to the past.
How you believed that love was your first and last.
Pain strikes and those memories takes a hike.
Walls go up and every emotion is considered fucked up.
You start to seal because you don't want to feel.
You are back to the start as an artificial heart.

A cup of "pretending"

Just like in Preschool...
"I have to pretend like I'm okay and even if I know I don't belong, I have to pretend to survive".

raise a glass to all insensitive men

YOU CAN NEVER TEACH A GUY TO LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU WANTED TO BE LOVED. YOU HAVE TO WAIT FOR HIM TO DO IT IN HIS OWN WAY, IN HIS OWN TIME, THAT’S THE SADDEST PART OF BEING A GIRL. BUT YOU CAN NEVER TEACH A GIRL TO LOVE THE GUY BACK THE WAY SHE DID BEFORE IF SHE ALREADY GREW TIRED AND WAITING TO BE APPRECIATED AND LOVED THE WAY SHE DESERVES TO BE LOVED, THAT’S THE SADDEST PART OF BEING AN INSENSITIVE MAN...

lets be real.

Guys who have their shit together is a turn on!! <3

a cup of commitment.

I find that as soon as i try to commit to something I tend to back out..
As you can see I told you that this week i was going to go abouts making every post about poems
but I back out because it seems so personal.. I don't know maybe I'm thinking way out of context.

please give me a few days just to think. I'll be back <3

A Cup of Broken Things.

There are broken things where her heart should be.
A side to her no one else can see.

Sometimes the girl who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely.
she tries to find her one and only
but yet she holds back and keeps her heart closely
trying to move on fearlessly
but loosely, non comprehensively, and submissively.. she fails.

Her plans of moving on derails
her thoughts go back to the details
and she can't seem to control her sails.

shes scared and unprepared.
Yet she's in deep desperation of repair.


The fear in showing her broken pieces
the size of her baggage increases.
As she tries to organize to restart
she tries to show her weak part.. I mean the heart is the most complex body part.
But she realizes it's time to be smart an start.
To leave behind the past and refine the bleeding heart.



hope you enjoyed my poem! lemme know what you thought about it <3

A cup of perspective of multiplication

Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply.

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. 

If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.

If you give her groceries, she'll make a marvelous meal.

If you give her a smile, She'll give you her heart. 

She multiples and enlarges what is given to her.



So....
If you give her any crap, you'll receive a ton of SHIT.

A cup of I miss you, I miss us

I was a hopeless romantic, you were a swine.

I'm Losing Myself by Robin Pecknold

Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw

Bay of Pigs by Destroyer

Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield

Enchanting Ghost by Sufjan Stevens

Make you feel my love by Adele

In Your Own Way by I Come To Shanghai

enjoy <3

A Bucket Full of Lists and Ideas For a Date

So I was thinking of making a bucket list since New Year resolutions never work but I ended up coming up with a "bucket list for dating"! Things and activities I would like to do when I do find my significant other! 

1. Wash our cars together.
2. Have a legit picnic.
3. Jam out! Write a song together! 
4. Cook or bake something we've never had before.
5. Explore our wonderful city of lights and act like tourists.
6. Go to a comedy or poetry club and participate.
7. Make banana pancakes on a rainy day and stay in bed watching black and white movies.
8. Dance in the rain.
9. Go camping and roast marshmallows and eat PB&J Sandies.
10. Feed the duckies and go on swings.
11. Go fruit picking.
12. Take a road trip for a day and see the sunrise and sunset.
13. Go to an amusement park and attempt at a kiss photo while riding the scariest ride.
14. Go to a thrift store and pick each other outfits and go on a photo shoot.
15. Buy sketch books and pencils and be create and explore.
16. Skinny Dip!
17. Go watch air planes take off and land.
18. Go to a drive in movie.
19. Water fight! Build a woman/man-made slip and slide!
20. Volunteer together.
    
    Enjoy <3

A Cup of All Pain is Temporary

Listen to me… 

Pain is temporary. It may last for a minuite or an hour or a day or even a year, but eventually it will subside. And something else will take its place. If i quit however it will last forever. Ya’ll spoiled some of ya’ll spoiled just bottom line. Your parents have done everything for you, you never had to do nothing for yourself your spoiled we gon’ keep it real tonight some of you are spoiled brats! Everytime you ever got in trouble somebody in your house got you out of it! Every time you done something your not supposed to you they say here your mothers a tyrant, you're right.

 She kicked me out. Your right, shes mean, but she developed a man. Because she put me out there and said your gon’ have to grow up and some of you never learned to grow up. So every time something get hard you quit, you call momma. I dare you to take a lil pain. I dare you… I dare you not to go home, somebody said if i don't go home i feel bad, go throw it!! You ain't gon’ die! At the end of pain is success! You not gonna die because you felt a lil pain! Oh I'm not eating like i eat at home.. that's why you about to go to the next level cause if you keep eating like you ate at home you gon’ keep being a boy or girl.. its time to become MAN/WOMAN. But I'm exactly where i wanted to be because i realise, i gotta commit my very being to this thing… i gotta breathe it i gotta eat it i gotta sleep it and until you get there, you will never be a successful in life. But once you get there i guarantee you.. the world is yours. So work hard and you can have whatever it is you wanted.

Check out Eric Thomas <3

A Cup of Wisdom

Wise Advice

1. Do not walk behind me, for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow.
    Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me the hell alone.
2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and leaky tire.
3. It’s always darkest before dawn. So if you’re going to steal your neighbor’s
    newspaper, that’s the time to do it.
4. Don’t be irreplaceable. If you can’t be replaced, you can’t be promoted.
5. Always remember that you’re unique. Just like everyone else.
6. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
7. If you think nobody cares if you’re alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
8. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes.
   That way, when you criticize them, you’re a mile away and you have their shoes.
9. If at first you don’t succeed, skydiving is not for you.
10. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish,
     and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.
11. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again,
     it was probably worth it.
12. If you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember anything.
13. Some days you’re the bug; some days you’re the windshield.
14. Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.
15. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in
     half and put it back in your pocket.
16. A closed mouth gathers no foot.
17. Duct tape is like ‘The Force’. It has a light side and a dark side,
    and it holds the universe together.
18. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
19. Generally speaking, you aren’t learning much when your lips are moving.
20. Experience is something you don’t get until just after you need it.
21. Never miss a good chance to shut up.
    
    
    
    Enjoy <3

A Cup of a Confuzzled Infused Single Tea

Why is it that life hits you with the most unexciting things when you want exciting things to happen and vise-versa?

What I want to establish right now is, why the hell am I single for this long? 

Its been about 4 years since I've actually had an actual boyfriend and, I'm ready! Seriously. No backing out. Do i sound crazy? don't get me wrong, I'm not love crazy... Hopefully. I miss falling in love. Being in that stage where you get butterflies in your stomach even when you hear the other's name. Having insomnia for the right reasons due to the excitement in love, not insomnia of wondering what the hell is wrong with me. Am i ugly? Am I too straight up? Is it because I sometimes have strong opinions about certain things?Am I always gonna be one of the dudes that will be never be considered a "lady"? I don't know. I'm just tired of being single now. I want to move on. I tell my guy friends to just move on as an advice, but i don't take it myself. I feel like a hypocrite but life isn't really giving me an opportunity. Or am I avoiding the opportunity? I think I would've noticed over the 4 years of being single. The more I think about why I'm single the more I start jumping to conclusion and start beating myself mentally by lowering my self esteem and that's the stupidest thing, to lower myself, but it's true... What am I doing wrong? What do the other girls have that I don't have? Are my standards too high? At this very moment I don't even think i have standards..No, I'm lying, but all I ask for in a guy is for him to spoil me with his love. That's all. is that too high of a standard?What am i doing wrong Internet? What am i doing wrong?

Maybe it's just the insomnia talking.

A Cup of Lovey Dovey Rhymes

Of all the friends I’ve ever met.
Your the one I won’t forget.
And if I die before you do,
I’ll go to heaven and wait for you.

Love is hard and will always be,but remember somebody loves you and that one is ME !

I feel something in my heart,
it’s like a little flame,
every time I see you,
this flame lights up,
this flame is special for you,because I LOVE YOU!




When the night comes, look at the sky.
If you see a falling star,
don’t wonder why, just make a wish.
Trust me, it will come true,
because I did it and I found you.

Words however special…
could never even start,
to tell you all the love
I have for you within my heart.

Theres a warmth in my heart.
It haunts me when you’re gone.
Mend me to your side and never let go.
The more I live The more I know,
what’s simple is true, “I love you”

Love under the stars…
they seem very far,
but you are so close the star I love the most.

Somewhere, some1 dreams of your smile & finds your presence in life so worthwhile.
So when your lonely, remember its true that some1, somewhere, is thinking of u.

The day that I’ll die,
when death replaces birth,
I’ll recognize angels’ faces,
because I live with one on earth.

My love, words however special …
could never even start,
to tell you all the love I have for you within my heart!!!

Loving you could take my life,but when I look into your eyes,I know you’re worth that sacrafice!

Don’t love 1,
don’t love 2,
but love the 1 who loves you.

I love three things: the sun,
the moon and you,
the sun for the day,
the moon for the night and you forever.

If a big fat man creeps into your bedroom one night and stuffs you into a bag,
Then do not worry ’cause I told Santa I wanted you for Christmas!

This post was cute 

and from me to you
hope you try and pursue
thank you <3

Cup of tea at a tea party or high tea; young enough to.. but.. old enough to..

"Believe that you can run farther or faster. Believe that you're young enough, old enough, strong enough, and so on to accomplish everything you want to do. Don't let worn-out beliefs stop you from moving beyond yourself."

John "the Penguin" Bingham

.Young enough to go to an epic concert,

Old enough to wear ear plugs because it fucking hurts your ears.

 Young enough to rock glitter nail polish, 

Old enough to pay someone to remove it.

Young enough to have a crush,

Old enough to buy him a drink.

Young enough to buy crap loads of candy whenever you feel like it,

Old enough to buy designer shoes whenever you feel like it.

Young enough to strut around in a tutu,

Old enough t wear nothing under it.

Young enough to sleep in a few extra minutes if you were up late,

Old enough to wake up a few minutes early just because of the desire of coffee.

Young enough to cry,

Old enough to get revenge.

A cup of Chivalry has died; a manly man's cup of reminder.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not referring to every guy out there but its just an observation that has been on my mind these couple of days. Maybe this could be a reminder for guys to polish up and maybe you can learn one or two things for the guys in this generation today who still have that hopeless river of good manner, respect and chivalry for them to freshen up!

1. Stand Yo ass Up. nuff' said.

This is traditional etiquette and it's defiantly not hard to follow that standing when a lady enters/departs from a room. This is also applicable to an elderly person.

Let's set an example, gentlemen, don't just sit your ass' on the sofa when she's leaving, get up, at least say bye to her face. Walk her to the door, properly.

common, let's face it, a grunting goodbye across the room while your ass is on the sofa watching TV doesn't show your attention nor your respect.

2. Doors.

hopefully guys know the rule of holding a door for a lady. but let's just establish this more clearly when opening the door step out of the way so that they can pass while doing so, it's common to follow up with a nod and an, "after you".

Revolving doors? don't worry, I got yo back!  Go first and say, "allow me" before you do so she doesn't think you're just pushing in front. push the door round for the lady who follows in behind you.Don't go too fast and smack each others backs (it hurts in heels).

guarantee you these two are sure to get you a smile from a discerning lady.

3. Go first.

This is a no brainer for most and you guys might think of it as if it was nagging but she walks in first because you are holding the door for her. This applies in movies,concerts, dinners, etc.

On exit from the row,  you will be leading, so stand at the end to stop anyone from cutting off your partner as they exit the rows in front, and allow her to exit in front of you then walk beside her.

4. Tables.Enable.

• Try to serve for the lady you came with, but never ever for a lady who came with another gentlemen.
• I know this may be a bad habit but keep your food in your mouth and not make disturbing noises as you eat.
• ask to be excused. In the accompany before guests or family.
• Keep your volume down. I hear you, you're sitting across from me. Boisterously is not hot.
• Don't force them into having something in which they have already declined once.

5. Get yo alarms set.

Considering I am quite bad at time managing I use this tip with great guilt but It shows respect, good planning and personal timekeeping and reliability.

If you are running late, then call the lady. If she doesn’t answer her phone, call the restaurant to make sure she is aware of what is going on and not left to become unnecessarily anxious.

If you are having to rush to meet her  after you have phoned,  make sure you take a minute or two to ‘catch your breath’, compose yourself and straighten yourself out before you go the final stretch and meet her.

6. Talkity. Talk. Talk

Remember there is two of you for the relationship to work. We love it when a man has his own thing goin on but If you catch yourself talking for too long apologize and turn the conversation.

Be enthusiastic and positive, no matter what they are saying, even if it is boring or not! This will put them at ease and more relaxed so a conversation will start to flow.

Try to avoid topics that evoke emotion like religion, politics and money. These may get you caught up in debate that is more suited to the comfort of your own home rather than on your date.

Laugh!

7. Getting Comfortable

It is your place, as the man, to make sure that your date is comfortable at all times. Do not  keep asking her if she is comfortable, but to notice if she is looking cold or shifting in an uncomfortable seat and take appropriate action to remedy the situation.

If you spot a puddle, you may be comfortable of just going right through it but don't drag her.now throwing your coat over it like in old times is a little extreme, but just make sure you both avoid it somehow.

Offer your coat if she is cold when you are out and about. Women tend to dress lightly since they hate to have too much stuff to carry around, so you should be prepared to sacrifice your coat or jacket to keep them warm (or getting them out of the cold is another solution!)

8. Yo eyes shine bright

It establishes that your undivided attention is on them.

Make sure that you genuinely are paying attention to them so that they feel they are the only person in the whole place. If you look around the room or look at other people then the person talking will assume that you are bored and looking to get away.

A good rule with eye contact is to look at the spot just in-between people’s eyes. Don’t stare for extended periods of time, take a quick break by briefly looking at something else and then come back, otherwise the talker could become uncomfortable and you will get one of these!

9. You. Yourself. and oh wait, there's her.

Unless you are pro at lying (which isn't a good trait) people can usually tell when you are exaggerating, if not immediately. They will some how find out and it will screw up your game.

It has also been said that women are 10 times more sensitive to body language than men, so if you are lying or exaggerating, there is a good chance they will know it!

If you try and be someone  you are not, you’ll only trap yourself into lying in the future to keep up the pretence, or  having to be called out which will make you look worse than if you just tried to be yourself.

10. At last

Just some quick tips:

• make sure she gets home fine. 
• make an effort to dress fresh, fly, and smell good
• don't be rude to others on a date. You look like a jerk.
• compliments are a plus but mean it
• try to pay for the first tab. **for gals: unless you want to be a gold digger. offer to pay.**
• Don't waste your time and date when you are genuinely single. none of this " well I am kind of seeing someone" bullsh!t.

<3 enjoy.

A cup of this type of love

I love Shihan and have been a long time since i've been a big fan!
We need more men like this in this world <3
This is a twist on Shihan's poem that has more of a female influence to it but, be sure to check out his version on youtube! (I put a link at the bottom of this post)

but most of all enjoy! :)

I want a love like
Me thinking of you
Thinking of me thinking of you type love
Or me telling my friends more than I’ve ever admitted to myself
About how I feel about you type love
Or hating how jealous you are
But loving how much you want me all to yourself type love
Or see how your first name just sound so good next to my last name
And shit I wanted to see how far I could get without calling you
And I barely made it out of my garage
See, I want a love that makes me wait until he falls asleep
And wonder if he’s dreaming about us being in love type love
Or who loves the other more
Or what he’s doing this exact moment
Or slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the music of our hearts
Closing my eyes and imagining how a love so good
Could hurt so much when he’s not there
And shit I love not knowing where this love is headed type love
And check this, I want to place those little post-it notes
All around the room so he never forgets how much I love him type love
And not have enough ink in my pen to write all there is to love about him type love
And hope I make him feel as good as he makes me feel
And I want to deal with my friends making fun of me
The way I made fun of them when they went through the same kind of love type love
Only difference is, this is one of those real love type loves
And just like in high school
I want to spend hours on the phone not saying shit
And then fall asleep and then wake up with him right next to me
And smell him all up in my covers type love
I want to try counting the ways I love him
And lose count in the middle just so I have to start all over again
And I want to celebrate one of those one month anniversaries
Even though they ain’t really anniversaries
But doing it just ‘cause it makes him happy type love
And, check this, I want to fall in love with the melody the phone plays
When none of us dialed into it type love
And talk to you until I lose my breathe
he leaves me breathless
But with the expanding of my lungs I inhale all of him back into me
I want a love that makes me need to change my cell phone calling plan
To something allows me to talk to him longer
‘cause in all honesty, I want to avoid one of them high cell phone bill type loves
And I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are
I mean the lines on my palms don’t give me enough time
To love you as long as I’d like to type love
And I want a love that makes me st-st-st-st-stutter
Just thinking about how strong this love is type love
And I want a love that makes me want to cut off all my hair
Well, maybe not all of the hair
Maybe like I cut the split ends and trim my bangs
But it would still be a symbol of how strong my love for him
And check this, I kind of feel comfortable now
So I even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light
Just dying to get hit by a car
Just so I could lose my memory
Get transported to some third world country just to get treated
Then somehow meet up again with you so I can fall in love with you
In a different language and see if it still feels the same type love
I want a love that’s as unexplainable as he is
But I’m married, so he’s gonna be the one I share this love with.

Check out his performance on Def Poetry Jam

A Cup of Enlightened Prospect

I’ve learned … That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I’ve learned … That when you’re in love, it shows.

I’ve learned … That just one person saying to me, “You’ve made my day!” makes my day.

I’ve learned … That being kind is more important than being right.

I’ve learned … That I can always pray for someone when I don’t have the strength to help him in some other way.

I’ve learned … That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I’ve learned … That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I’ve learned … That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I’ve learned … That we should be glad God doesn’t give us everything we ask for.

I’ve learned … That it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I’ve learned … That under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I’ve learned … That the Lord didn’t do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I’ve learned … That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I’ve learned … That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I’ve learned … That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I’ve learned … That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I’ve learned … That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I’ve learned … That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I’ve learned … That life is tough, but I’m tougher.

I’ve learned … That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I’ve learned … That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I’ve learned … That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I’ve learned … That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I’ve learned … That I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I’ve learned … That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it.

I’ve learned … That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life-threatening situation.

I’ve learned … That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

a cup of the cold past.

why is it that everytime I go back for another post is when I'm at my all time low?
I've been in this new country for 2 months and will be back home in about a month time.
I don't know how I feel about leaving and returning back to reality. I've learned so much about myself and my family while here. I guess I'm in a bittersweet agreement at the moment.

I am so unbeilevably loved. Yet right now, I want to go home. I know I'm gonna regret this post when I go home and read this back but I miss home.